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You should probably just go ahead and fall in love with Jennifer Lawrence right now.

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I’m doing the best I can.

Well, Tumblr, nearly a year ago, I applied to the Nursing program at ODU and was disappointed to find I didn’t make the cut. Out of over 400 applicants, I made 113th on the waiting list last year. (see http://laortiz.tumblr.com/post/4102433193/im-doing-the-best-i-can)

Over this past year, I’ve evaluated my career goals and realized that not getting into the program at ODU doesn’t mean I can’t get a Nursing degree somewhere else. I began pursuing a minor in Psychology. In turn, I ended up loving the subject; instead of working hard to make A’s in my classes, everything I learned came naturally. Having a love for Psychology, I chose to “double major” at ODU. But what if I didn’t get into the program again? Am I ready to deal with the same level of disappointment? Is the Nursing program at ODU my absolute last resort? No, it shouldn’t be. 

On that note, I looked into the Sentara School of Health Sciences BSN Program.

PROS:

  • It’s so close to home, costing me virtually nothing to commute compared to going to ODU for classes the past 3 years.
  • It’s the same cost as ODU tuition and books for 1-year Out-of-State, but I’ll get the degree I’ll be working for in 2 years.
  • It’s a nationally accredited program, vs ODU’s regionally accredited program, so I’ll be able to work anywhere in the US, especially when I go to grad school.
  • I get to keep my job that is literally across the street from my house, while going to school full-time.
  • They only accept as many people as they can give jobs to, so if I finish my degree there, I have a solid chance on getting a job right out of college.
  • Also, Sentara assists graduates with paying for tuition debt, so I can potentially pay off my college debt a lot sooner than anticipated.
According to these standards, I have nothing to lose! I began formulating a “Plan B” for my Nursing goal: who says I can’t finish a degree at ODU? I certainly don’t want any of my credits to go to waste. With that thought, I began working toward my Plan B, not making ODU my only option. I applied to the SCOHS and have a pending spot for the class this coming Fall (2 months and nearly $200 later.) Turns out, that was a good decision. My sister, a freshman at ODU, got into the SoN her first try. I am incredibly proud of her. I got my results for ODU’s SoN and got wait-listed, but this time 40th instead of 113th. Not too shabby, if I do say so myself. More than likely, however,they won’t pick me up over the summertime. Sentara sent me a letter saying my spot for their nursing school is contingent on my pre-admission test scores, and certifications prior to taking the classes. Fingers crossed! I take the test in a few weeks. Hopefully, I have a better turn-out with this school than my current institution. 
Reflecting on last year’s disappointment, I have to say I’m quite pleased that working toward my career has given me gratifying results this year. I feel incredibly secure in my choices, while it may cost me just as much to commute and go to school in Norfolk. If I continue with my plan, I’ll graduate from ODU with a Bachelor’s of Science in Psychology with a Minor in Management in the Spring of 2014, and a Bachelor’s of Science in Nursing degree the following spring, 2015. I’ll get to stay with my sorority doing service and get the degrees I want. Around that time, my little sister will be graduating ODU with her Nursing degree as well. It helps that Will and I have similar time frames when it comes to graduating school. Since he works so much, he probably won’t be able to graduate with his Bachelor’s degree until 2015 as well. I’ll have had my college experience, I got to meet the love of my life, and I’ll have 2 degrees. One day, I’ll want a Masters for both of them. Pretty sweet deal, if you ask me. 
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Truth.

I am the child of an alcoholic. Everyday is a struggle. My life is made so much more difficult than it should actually be. Alcoholism is a progressive disease, and unfortunately, I am trapped living in it. Now, I can go on this huge rant about my father’s behavior, shortcomings, and failures, but the complexity of the situation often leaves me with no words. I fear him dying, but lack pity because it will result from his own hand. I hate his decision to become virtually absent, mentally, emotionally, and physically. I hate that I feel the need to love someone who doesn’t love me in return, but hate him at the same time. I love my mother, but can’t respect her as his enabler.  I wish my life were more normal; I would love to be a normal 20-year-old college student, spending my time the way I want to instead of having my priorities based on the dysfunction that is my family. It’s incredibly disappointing that I can’t. I feel my life, as it should be, has been taken away from me. It affects everything I do and the decisions I make. I once tweeted,”When you know someone with a disease [alcoholism], what once brought joyous camaraderie is loathed and avoided for fear of turning into what is despised.” Unless someone comes from a family that associated with substance abuse, no one can understand what I deal with everyday. All I can do at this point, is to try to survive in the situation that has befallen me, biding my time until I can get out and be on my own. 

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Breathe easy, think clearly.

Well, Tumblr, I have to say my long-awaited rants have finally brought me to a place of calm and clarity. I had my second interview today, and they were happy to give me the job! Go me! :) I have orientation next Tuesday. Let’s hope it goes well! 

I can’t help but notice that over the past week, I was at war with myself with choosing to stay at my current place of work versus making strides with a new employer. After talking to my near and dear friends, Giselle and Jamie, I’ve realized I’ve been ignoring a thought I normally stand by day to day: If I’m not happy, I’m going to make it so I am happy. I can’t help it that my current job is stressing me out beyond belief, because of the disintegration of the little structure it had. While I may feel resentment of how the workplace came to get to this point, I can’t help but care for the venue that I helped open. I remember a time when coming to work was something to look forward to, a time where everyone was treated equally, trained to do their best, and strove to exceed expectations. What once held purpose for everyone that I knew from opening is now lost. The majority of them have come and gone. I’m not going to stay at a place that doesn’t guarantee me stability and support. I need some time away from there to get situated with my life and put my priorities first. 

Countdown to Cruise Time!

10 months and 10 days! It seems like it will be forever until the day gets here! I just put down a $211.30 payment. Go me :) Only $400 left for the cruise part! And another $500 for spending $$ :(

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